All I lust for

And you’re my obsession, I love you to the bones.

Most people don’t know this but I used to be bulimic. They didn’t know I was bulimic, but they did see the results of it. They loved it. They loved being around me, holding me, picking me up and tossing me up in the air. They loved taking my photo and taking photos with me.

I thought I was happy but I was wrong. Here I am back to my original weight and I’ve decided to take control again. That’s all it is. Control, discipline.

I’m aching for the day I can see my hipbones poking through again.